Peripheral Pigments
There is the subject and there are the pigments in its periphery. The subject is the point of focus and peripheral pigments that really define the matter remain largely insignificant. These writings, essays and articles are an attempt to splatter those other colors into the focal point. They have often lost pattern and roamed and wandered off. I did not stop them. This blog is about those other colors.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
I was born...
Nineteen Eighty-eight, when General Ershad organized a mockery of an Election where nobody else participated and he won an overwhelming victory with the record lowest votes ever casted in an Election, and eventually in a desperate act to win the illiterate masses, made sweeping hard-right changes to the constitution, and sent Bangladesh on a permanent one-way metaphysical journey of identity crisis. It was also the year of the great flood, Bonna, the worst ever seen, most documented by media, the one that gave the perfect excuse to our politicos to set out to the West with their begging bowls, and the one that is primarily responsible for the Westerner's mental picture of Bangladesh as a place submerged in chest-deep water, with scantily clad, bony brown people wading-swimming-boating and whatever else flood-victims do and flashing teeth at cameras from the sheer delight of having their picture taken. It was a messed-up year.
And then, to make things worse, I was born.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Gibberish
Suppose you wake up one morning, yawn some, fall back again, roll a little, get up, stretch a bit, and go of instead of the washroom to the window, fly it open and find to your shock (or awe, or anything for that matter) that the world has taken a tinge of pink! The sky –baby pink, the greens - greenish pink, the oblong concrete monsters – pinkish from the baby pink sky, and to top the already toppled over senselessness of the situation, the air is scented with a trace of fruitypink! Rub rub, rub your eyes, pinch your tummy, breathe deep and exhale. Still the same!
What would your reaction be to such a phenomenon? Honestly now, and seriously too. Would you be scared? Confused? Puzzled and anxious? Would you telephone the police? Would you pray? Or would you numbly await an explanation, refusing to analyze the event or even experience it with your full emotion until you had read the papers, tuned in the news, heard how experts from the universities were explaining the chromatization (or, fuitification or whatever it maybe), learned how the geologists planned to deal with it, were reassured by the Prime minister, who might insist, as Prime ministers always will, that nothing really had gone wrong?
Or instead of fear, bewilderment and anxiety, or in addition to fear bewilderment and anxiety, or instead of a hard impulse to dismiss the happening and get back to business-as-usual, or in addition to a hard impulse to dismiss the happening and get back to business-as-usual, do you imagine that a bright trace of delight, unnamable and indefensible, might tickle down your spine; could you feel in an odd way elated – elated, perhaps, because, in a rational world where even sickening-malicious-crimes are familiar and damn near routine, some thing of almost fairytale flavor had occurred?
Saturday, May 22, 2010
On Minor (?) Post-colonial anxieties
Racism was inflicted to the unwitting mind of an adolescent with the ebony tentacles of half-finished-tales and history-in-fragments. History was hidden from me/us. Inaccessible. The politicians did it because they didn't need to rewind any far backward to achieve their goals of attaining popularity and the authors did it because they could not come out of their petty emotions. I cannot blame either much; the former, because I already ceased to expect from them and the latter, because the war had happened during their youth. Their [latter] closest ones had been murdered or raped or both. But they must come out of this. It is about time they give the children a comprehensive detail.
Why should a child live with an animosity towards his neighbor country, only because he chose to read? Who is to blame? "There are things which took place on the night of the March 25th [1971] which must remain permanently in the state of confusion"- Midnight's Children. Who is to blame? The only acclaimed literary giant, who spoke about the unsurpassed, unparalleled and unthinkable wrongdoings of modern political history, with comprehensive specifics of the three preceding decades, is banned in Bangladesh. The west, however, reaches out so far as to honor him with knighthood. Whether they do it out of appreciation for good literature or out of a sense of guilt, I doubt. Who is to blame? The religious fanatics? If so, why them; who made them, I ask.
The west condemns the East (largely Muslims) as religious terrorism. On the 3rd June 1947, Viscount Lord Mountbatten of Burma, the last British Governor-General of India, announced the partitioning of the British Indian Empire into India and Pakistan, under the provisions of the Indian Independence Act 1947. At the stroke of midnight, on 14 August 1947, India became an independent nation. And the partitioning – let's not go into the back-then- prevalent political ideologies – was done on the basis of religious identities of the peoples; the chain reactions that would follow should have not been unanticipated by the great political minds who entered these lands in the name of the "Lord". Now there are grown up men who write books justifying colonization; I doubt neither their motive nor their ethics; I doubt their faculty of logic.
Why should a youth intent upon knowing his history end up with an identity crisis; Who is to blame?
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Ishmael (and others)
I was re-reading Midnight's Children (Salman Rushdie), which, in spite of being a magical realism post colonial literature, explores the theme of recurrence. Saleem (protagonist cum antagonist) discovers himself entangled, time and again in the labyrinths of the spider webs of the past, present and even the future.
It is so beautiful to see how recurrence fails to get banally repetitive. As I read Ishamel, I could not help but relate it to Sophie's World (and even to Midnight's Children because in Ishmael, magical realism had seeped in), where young Sophie learns about human knowledge through an epistemological approach. Her mentor Alberto Knox shares basic forms of alienation with Ishmael.
Ishmael's propositions on alternate knowledge are very profound and provoking. Even though Biblical characterization and speculations on its[Bible] metaphors have been major themes in many literary works, Ishmael seems to present them in a way that makes one really ponder; mostly due to its inexorable relevance with the world we live in.
In the second page, I found something very interesting. There, Herman Hesse's Journey to the East was referred to. How Hesse failed to identify the ingredients of Leo's "awesome knowledge" was mentioned. Now, Hesse is a very favorite author of mine – owing largely, to his Western origin and Eastern interests (he also shares with me a penchant for water colors). I had read most of his books, but not chronologically.
I looked up the chronology now, just to make sure. In Siddhartha (Hesse's other novel, published in 1922, some 10 years before the publication of Journey to the East) Hesse does account for the source and making of Siddhartha's enlightenment. Had Hesse, over the course of ten years, reiterated his beliefs and concluded that it was impossible to account for a thing of such magnitude? Makes one muse; and yes, recurrence is inevitable.
I started this to write about my thoughts on the book Ishmael. Look where I ended up. Justifying Peripheral Pigments, I guess. :-)
Lately, I have been using a lot of brackets. It is the effect of Midnight's Children. I can't help it – the authors I love to read find their way of seeping into the way I write. Yeah, recurrence is inescapable. :-)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
A History of Doubt by Krista Tippett
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010
The Eastern Dog
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Painting Portfolio
Monday, December 7, 2009
All Eat All
A lrb (London Review of Books www.lrb.com) essay. It draws on the various meanings of the term cannibalism, its historical sources, contexts and references. The essay starts with the story of a couple of real life cannibals – Amin Miewes and Bernd Brandis, modern people with decent jobs. The later voluntarily subjects himself to be devoured by the former. This news, the writer uses mostly to draw attention.
The essay is followed by the origins of cannibalism. He mentions Marco Polo's reference of cannibalistic and dog-headed colonies and later assertions of Columbus and Avramescu of such existence. The word, it is suggested, has its origins in 'carib' from Caribbean. There are references of Robinson Crusoe and implications on how colonizers had intentionally coined the 'savages' as cannibals to give meaning to their merciless exploitations.
There is a certain example drawn from Othello which lacked relevance. The essay eventually takes a more passive turn and reflects more on cannibalism's anthropological aspects quoting from and relating to the likes of Rousseau, Locke, Father Labat and Swift's 'Modest Prosposal'.
The ending was quite interesting and more so to me as it relates Freudian (lately my subject of interest) interpretations of greed behavior with cannibalism. It ends with the example of Sweeny Todd the movie and suggests that modern cannibalism is really the corporate greed devouring the common man.
It is probably the alacritous and mellifluous adeptness with which the essay addresses otherwise dry or rather pedantic issues that liked so much.
Also the way the writer seizes the readers' attention with an example that has almost nothing to do with the matter that follows is very noticeable.
Anyone interested to read the essay can follow the link below:
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Question The Premises
Albert Camus had once written “There is but only one true philosophical problem and that is suicide. Judging whether life is or is not worth living amounts to answering the fundamental questions of philosophy.” This claim holds profound relevance as it encompasses the rudimentary elements and ideas of life. In context, however, it poses to ask whether life at large is worth living or not, but I see it in a different perspective. The question before us is whether we want to embrace the tradition of our society and not necessarily make it the only and dominant tradition. The idea of suicide, at a perfunctory glance may be altogether cowardly, but is it not really the premises of suicide that should really decide the relevance or meaning of the act? To condemn a situation without judging the set of events that precede it is but an act of foolhardy rashness.
Of a person, who has been continuously held back by series of rather unfortunate set backs and thus left unsure of his future endeavors, suicide poses itself as a rather quick and easy remedy. This is really a very tricky situation because the premises or determinants of well being set by his standards may vary from those of the norm. These standards surely offer flexibility for professional judgment but there are situations which are not so dubious and a common judgment to those can be availed. I have heard of various incidents of suicide or attempts of suicide where it appears to be the best decisive act.
A friend once told me of this fire accident that he had witnessed. A commercial building had somehow caught fire in the middle of the night and my friend who happened to have a warehouse in that building had to rush there immediately. What he saw that night were horrific realities that surface only in the close proximity of death. The fire had started on the second floor and was fast rising up. Three unfortunate victims got stuck in the 3rd floor. With no help approaching, they decided to jump off. It is obvious that in spite of what may seem like suicide they had only chosen an alternate/’preferable’ means to their ends. They only decided to end it quickly instead of being subject to prolonged suffering. In doing so, I believe they had undertaken an act of bravery.
But that is not the point of the incident. After two of the victims had jumped, the third could not decide whether or not he too shall jump. The direct consequence (immediate death) of the act had left him dubious. What had seemed like a cure was now nothing but exercising vanity. Judging the premises of suicide is a very delicate matter.
Social standards demean suicide. The laws try to prevent it. But, the implication that there are people who would not commit suicide because of the social stigma or the illegitimacy associated with it, is to me, the punch line of a very flat joke. It is only logical that a person, who has decided to end his life, does not bother much about such things as the law, and he definitely cannot be too pleased with people to care much for what they think is best for him to do. A person who has decided that suicide is a reasonable option cannot simply be expected to differentiate right and wrong through such social standards; his decision is an embodiment of his denial to those values.